[	Current Mood	|	drained	]
[	Current Music	|	Black eyed peas- dont funk with my heart	]

WOW is all i have to say about lately. The past two weeks have been nothing but ppls bull. I know ive said this about 4 trillion times but i h8 when people r twofaced. I mean there is no need for it. Say what u gotta say and be done with it but then again according to some people (more specificly A person) they dont have the luxury of being me and saying wht the want. Well i guess i could do what people say and run my mouth but when i try to help people it usually gets thrown back in my face so im gunna pass on the running of the mouth.I think ill do the exact opposite and cut off the information. What i hear from now on is between me and the person who told it. You'd think i would have learned this lesson sooner, but it wasnt actually until last night that i realized even when you keep information from someone to help them or because of fear that they might blow u in, it doesnt matter, YOU will ALWAYS be wrong if you knew the information to begin with wheather you thought u were doing the right thing or not.

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[	Current Music	|	akon- lonely(i h8 this song, its on @ work)	]

So everything was going really well for quite sometime until i guess i "ran my mouth"(so to say). I guess it was my fault that all the shit went down and i actually felt like matt but i did it for a reason.I hated that i was made out to look like a lying sack of shit in the end when i wasnt and now my friends probably hate me. I just dont understand sometimes why people cant admit what they say??? No matter i guess ill take the blame cause i hate when everyone fights. I d rather have everyone mad at me then transfering the blame to someone else. I know what i said and i can repeat iot in a heartbeat but I ill just leave it alone. I guess that only time can heal the damage.

I talked to adam last night and hes like really pumped to go into the air force. He still has some doubts but hell be ok. Hes the adventurous type neways.

I dunno what megan thinks of everything cause i havent mad the effort to say anything to her. But b4 all the shit happened shes been really happy.........prolly the happiest that ive seen her in a long time.

Work will forever be annoying. I hate the schedule switching shit that goes on. Im not forced to work monday for matt cause noone else will do it. Its ok though, it will be boring and i can work on my english portfolio.............God knows ill have plenty of silence.

88 days till i cruise around europe and drink myself dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[	Current Mood	|	content	]
[	Current Music	|	Some shit @ work- New radio station	]

So lately things have acctually been ok. Except for i havent been feeling well lately but no big. AND FOR THE RECORD.............MEGAN I AM NOT MAD AT U...............YET J/K. u JUST ANNOY ME SOMETIMES BUT IN A WAY A FRIEND DOES.(DID THAT MAKE WNY SENSE? No i didnt think so.)

So shits not bad lately i havent heard much of anyones shit prolly due to the fact that when everyone thinks im mad: they tend to stay away cause i might rip their faces off. No major shit to talk about. This is actually kinda depressing. I must say this may just b the lamest live journal that ive ever written.

I am now convinced that there is information that is being hidden from me and i will find out. It has been way too tranquil for our little group of horrors to not have any drama. I guess tonight im P.I 'in it.

Cor whore what the hell u dont call u dont write what the shit is this about??? Im waiting for another H5/T-UNIT outing! I also wanna hear the shit about doug since u havent been with jer. U know the cell my favorite irish woman.

What does the person who usually has all the answers do when they finally run out of them???? I cant even solve my own problems and yet im sitting here listening to other's issues. I feel like im fading slowly away from everyone. I can blame others but i wont because then id start problems so i guess as usual (lately anyways)  im gunna keep it on the dl.

So my big thing is liers. I hate them! So when im asked "whats wrong?" Do i lie and become a hypocrite and avoid conflict or say how i feel (the norm) and face the consequences of possibly insulting everyone i talk to? I AM SO CONFUSED!!!!!!!!!!!  I really dont wanna pull a corrie and seclude myself away from everyone (which wouldnt be a bad idea considering that i doing horrible in school) but its all i can think of doing. It wont make the issues or feelings that i have go away but for a while it will get them off my mind until a later date when i can handel them.

Everyone in our group is fading away not just from me but from eachother. None of them will admit it to eachothers faces but its there. I know for a fact im not the only one seeing it cause others have come to me and said somethig way b4 i did so................i guess if it all falls apart were all to blame but its still shitty.

I H8 THIS FEELING!

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[	Current Music	|	commercials on the radio	]

I love when somethings wrong with someone and they take it out on everyone else...............isnt it just enjoyable. I know i do it but at least i admit that i do it, but whatever.

I hate the bullshit i have to listen to 24-7 because people dont know when to keep their mouths shut. I like to hear peoples issues and help them but when other people intervein and make the situation worse that kills me. Because whose the first one to get called when the shit hits the fan? (ill guve u one guess!) Oh yeah ME!!!

Has anyone ever wanted to tell someone something but then didnt because you were afraid to hurt them? Thats how i feel right now. The only problem is that if i told the people who i know shit about what other people thought it may cause problems and i dont wanna be the starter of issues. At least not intentionally. I dunno, i know my opinions are valued(so to say) but i sometimes dont feel right giving them because of what might be said after. I guess lately ive been doing alot more talking to ppl about shit. I know it helps them vent but the only problem is that i now know how ppl feel about certain things and then if people only knew it would be over.

I DONT FUCKING KNOW?  I GUESS I JUST KNOW WAY TOO MUCH!!!!!

So last night after matts house i was on my way home when an odd number came up so i answered it. It was my cousin and he wanted to know what i was doing. He convinced me to come over for a bit. I WAS IN THAT BASEMENT WITH THOSE POT HEADS FOR 3 HRS. When i woke up to get ready for work i felt like what megan looks like in the morning. It was bad i thought i wasnt gunna make it in.

[	Current Mood	|	tired	]
[	Current Music	|	smashmouth- then the orning comes	]

My little brother is the workout nazi!!!!!!!!!!! I simply asked him to keep me on track with my work outs and instead i got a personal trainer from hell!!!!!! He's like up my ass on everything now. I was doing the normal reps that he had planned for me and he kept telling me todo more...........i thought i was gunna shit myself. He is terrible!!! I wish i never asked the piece of shit to help me now. He had me up at the asscrack of dawn douing push ups and reps with weights. I swear to u i was so tempted to put a weight through his head!!!!!!!!!

I thought i should let the world know about my tramatic experience today. Im gunna go feed my fat and probably sleep. Then im off to the hojos and i get to yell at Randel later. Oh and mad excited i wont be bored at work this weekend. (he better bring bear or theres gunna be probs.)

I have to start up by saying Megan, u crack me up!!! The shit u tell me is priceless!

This weekend was nothing special. Just the same old people hanging at the same old places talking about the same old shit. The only exciting thing that i found out about is that Randy will be working with me next weekend. He'll be working maintenence but still alll he'll have to do is move a few tvs, change the garbage and possibly put away the breakfast. Im mad excited cause i wont be bored.

I guess my journal lately has been getting people in trouble but no offense to any of my friends but............i dont care. And to be honest they shouldnt either.

Ummmm....................what else? I dunno im just really bored right now and im waiting for my food to come. I guess ill be hanging with the crew tonight after the festivities at my house are over. I absolutely hate palm sunday cause every year my dads friends come over for dinner and its gay. My dad makes me and my bro go cause he thnks it will make his friends and business associates think that we're a tight nit family or some shit like that. But whatever its just another year of the same shit so hopefully after the boringness ends i hope i can ahve a semi-fun night with my friends.

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[	Current Music	|	oldies- im at work	]

It's 8:42am and im sitting at the DAYS INN RIVERVIEW bored as hell out of my mind. There are suppose to be like 35 checkouts and yet not one has showed yet.(im assuming that they're all going to come down at the same time and ill be stressed out cause the lobby is full of people!)

So anyways the past couple of days has been quite interesting in our lame lives. All i can say is  is that ...................without all the bullshit that happens and all the people who like to pry in other peoples business, i dont think i would have anything to do all day. Of course everyone and their mother comes to me with their problems when something goes wrong. The thing i love the most is how people just cant seem to mind their own business and have to make other people misrable just because their relationships suck!!!!!! FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE READING THIS U KNOW WHO U R!

School sucks ass and im definately only shooting for a 2.0 this semester. This semester sucked ass and a half. MY FATHER IS GOING TO CRUSIFY ME WHEN HE SEE'S MY GRADES!!! I havent been on campus(to stay) in about a week and people have been calling me to c if i was alive. Now that my parentals gave my car back im have no reason to be there. Why listen to the drama from Buffalo when i can experience it first hand in Niagara Falls? Chances are: im not going to stay on campus this week either.

Megan's in Rochester this weekend with Matt, Nick, Beth, and Courtney. Courtney wanted to c this concert so they thought they could take a little vaca. I was kinda glad that she would get a reprieve from all the shit thats bben going on but as of midnight last night the calls started pouring in. This chick is like a drama magnet im convinced. I went out with Bry and Randy last night and i must say it was quite enjoyable. There was no drama and not a whole lot of talk about anything major. It may of been because megan wasnt there. (sry meg)

Corrie texted me the other day and i forgot to call her and invite her to the fun we didnt have this weekend. SRY COR WHORE

KT thinks i ditched her last night by going out with Bry and Randy. I never agreed to going to the whatever it was with her. I was sleeping when she called to ask me if she could borrow my italian book.

So i came home yesterday went tanning (and only the parts that people wont b c-ing are the ones that are getting tanner) picked up my mother from work, ran errands, and went to dinner with the fam. So after dinner i went with matt nick olivia(the person who is currently interested in nick) so they could go eat dinner. This was a chore and a half. We first went to denny's and the i had reminded nick that it was friday and u cant eat meat. So then after debating for like 20 min nick wanted to go to Gadawski's for a fish fry. Well after explaining to the waiter that we yhad to leave and it was urgent to get olivia home b4 her mom flips a shit we were on our way to Gadawski's when matt said that it would be bussier than a whore house on a saturday. So then we decided to go to Applebees. After i was dropped off at my car and went to megans work. It was enjoyable. Jason Gormsley cracks my fat ass up. Him and amber were accross the table from eachother talking through ims. It was hilarious. So then Kt came and got her glasses from me cause she left them in my car, i went shit, drove amber home and then met megan and kt at megan's house. At this point in time i was perfectly content with life and then megan had to ruin it by being a heinous bitch.(there were other factors too so it wasnt just her) So now im annoyed and hating life i was a bitch for about the next 2 hrs.  Then i guess corrence came (i didnt c her) and shortly after kt and corr whore left to go to canada. So then it was me bry megan and randel. Well i was locked out of my house and couldnt go home so i had to stay at the hotel. I stayed in the room wi9th megan and randy. I felt really bad cause i felt like i was intruding. But my bitchyness corrupted randy cause we got onto the topic of how everyone hates him but they wont say anything to his face so........... and him and megan fought for a bit and i felt horrible. Ive never felt so bad b4 in my life. So then a little after things were ok between megan and Randy i left and luckily my mother was up to let me in.

                                           Highlights of the Night

- calling a radio station and asking about ghost stories

-measuring boobs

-colossao taco (kt kennedy drunk and marissa s's huge ass)

-freaking out the night auditor

-megan elbowing herself in the head with randys elbow

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ive never been more excited for the weekend in mt life! This week at school has sucked so much nut hair its ridiculous! I have a test today in anthro and i bet u im gunna fail and kt fil will pass.(not by much though) So Ive wanted to talk to cor whore but havent had the time to give her a ring. She works alot anyways so maybe its good that i didnt bother her. Kt is mortified that Chris Tavano went away to c his mother and then off to Chicago to take a look at a Timberland store, shes praying that he h8s it so he will 4 ever stay with her- aka so they can continue fighting like always. Megan gets giddy on thursdays cause randel comes home and at the same time battles the hatred toward randy that some of our "friends" have toward him. I asked him last night at the hotel to ask his "pops" about fixing my car and he said he would and he better or that ugly thing sitting in the back of his house will never see daylight again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! j/k(no im really not) No one fucking knows what the hell is going on with Bobby cause the kid is like anti-social: would u pick up the phone sometime JESUS CHRIST!!!!! Well i guess Bobby is sucking in school as much as the rest of us are and thats kinda relieveing considering i thought Bobbert was a brain. WHAT THE FUCK ELSE..............................................This weekend had better be an enjoyable one cause i have been in the best mood that ppl have seen me in a long time and if my friends are smart the wont piss me off!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Ummmmm thats all for now i just got in my dorm and its dead quiet and my roomate is sleeping and im sure the keyboard is annoying so im going to stop but if he doesnt wake up from his own farts the the keyboard shouldnt wake him up either so whatever i gues ill go italian 101 calls...................Buonogiorno Peeps (that means goodmorning)

[	Current Mood	|	calm	]
[	Current Music	|	mr brightside- the killers	]

So lately ive been really really bitchy and obviously everyone has noticed. If i havent already expressed what my childhood trauma is, its due to all bullshit that goes on and the fact that i have to hear it all. Some of it i dont mind hearing but alot of it is just useless information. Yes it bothers me that ive been an ass to my friends but the only other way is to act like nothings wrong and yet everyone knows that there is so why hide it! 

- Meg and I share the same viewpoint on that everyone should mind their own damn business and leave her and Randy alone.

- If people have an issue with anyone why dont u just say something instead of talking behind peoples back?

- People who are trying to start shit(with anyone)should just kill themselves right now. There's no need for the extra shit in our lives, Im pretty sure we all have enough to deal with.

- Cor whore has the right idea of secluding herself from people, well i had the same idea but corrie's just a little more proactive about it.

Anyways moving on.......................i think my solution is just to start over with everyone. Just be my usual blunt self but with a better attitude. The seclusion thing was a good idea but i dont think i can do it for long and then when i would start hanging out with ppl again id just ending put being bitchy!

So anyway ill bve home later yodya to do my laundry and hopefully will be back at school tonight but chances are that ill end up staying home and mnissing class tomorrow! Thats just the norm!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PEOPLE WHO LIKE TO READ MY JOURNAL AND USE IT TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLES LIVES MISRABLE SHOULD FUCK OFF!!!!!! WHY SHOULD I HIDE THE TRUTH JUST SO OTHER PEOPLES LIES CAN STILL BE IN EFFECT! !! WHY SHOULD THE LIVES OF ME AND MY FRIENDS BE DISRUPTED BY PETTY PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO LIVES. AND IF ARTHUR T CURCION WANTS TO DISCUSS MY LATEST ENTRY HE KNOWS HOW TO REACH ME!!!!

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[	Current Music	|	DISCO INFERNO- 50 CENT	]

Wow its been mad long since ive updated this shit! As usual there hasnt been much gong on in the pathtic lives of the t-unit members. Except the usual bickering and shit of the usuall people.

Corrie for some reason is ignoring the world, she refuses to answer any of mine and megans phone calls.(im pretty sure i know why though) I thought she was mad at me which she very well could be considering i saw her online yesterday and asked her if she was mad and then signed off so......im really not sure that the hell is going on with Corrie Ellen Fucking O'Hara!

Megan and Randy are peachy keen minus the whole he has a girlfriend fact. Randy although is already being the jealous boyfriend even though him and Megan dont go out........... hes asking alot of questions about artie and vise versa. Artie the nosey little shit that he is is also asking questions about randy. Not that is either of their business about eachother but whatever. If they really want to know sonething why dont they just ask eachother???? I am a little upset that Randy doesnt trust me with any info. I cant blame him considering everytime im mad i always say that im gunna blow someones spot but i never do and if i do its on accident. But people who truely trust me like Megan and Corrie know that ive never told nayone anything that theyve told me not to repeat. I think the time that i talked to randy about artie b4 he came home scared him and also i think hes afraid im gunna find out who his girlfriend is and tell her which isnt something i would do unless i relly hated him which i dont but i guess only time can build trust.

Adom in my opinion is comming on way too strong to corrence! He says he doesnt like her and swears it up and down i dunno its all wierd. I cant place it.

TODAY IS MARDI GRAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And yet im not doing anything :-( I wanted megan and corrie to come up and we can chill and watch movies and shit but megan doesnt want to and im sure if i call corrie she wont answer so looks like im getting drunk with a litlle stoned on the side!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I seriously cant stand people anymore!!!!!!!!! Y do they feel the need to lie and piss me off? Do they not know that im going to say something to them? Oh and i love how kt tells me that she calls me all the fucking time to do shit and i never pick up my phone.....................THAT IS THE BIGGEST LOAD OF SHIT IVE IVE EVER HEARD IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! So just for the record i always call ppl back if i missed their call and kt dont write in ur lj that u couldnt get ahold of the "crew" casue the u must not have called everyone!

What the shit??????? I cant take Jeremy anymore, the kid is like 6 states away and he cauises more trouble than a rabid monkey!!!! I was awoken yeasterday at 8 am by none other than  jeremy telling me that hes going to pretend to be gay so he can get out and one of his bunk mates was gunna say that he was jers "partner". So about 20 min later i recieve another phone call from a number that i didnt recognise. I answered it and the voice said " Carl did u talk to jeremy this morning?" So not knoing who it was i said " who the hell is this?" they replied "ITS TAMMY CURCIONE HONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!"  I was gunna shit i started appoligizing rite away and she asked me all thse questions about what jer said and she wanted to know what i was saying to jer when he called and what corrie said when she talked to hima nd all this shit. After like 2 hrs of me meg adom and cor talking to eachother, mrs curcione wanted us all over theere after 3(thats when big art left for work) so we can all talk. I guess that jer has been telling us all different shit(which is y he didnt want us to go c his ma). Well we straightened everything oyut and its all peachy keen once again. (or at least another bullshit lie comes up)

Last night i went and watched megan at karate and it was the fucking funniest thng i had seen in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I seriously shit a brick of weed and smoked it!!!!!!!!!! It smelled really bad up there like rotting feet but the fighting was the best. They did this shit where it was like u had to pretend to fight 3 othere ppl off and thsi one dude who was like 59 yrs old was acting like a powere ranger!!!!!!! i swear to god when i lefyt there i had never laughed so hard in my life!!!!!

Well ive been puking all day so we shall see what is happening tonight. Kt called and said she got her cunt belt and i really want to c it!!!!!!!!!

Things lately have been very weird. Its been a heinous emotional rollercoaster. First jeremy left for his infintry training and i dont care what neone says.........he knew that he would be killing ppl!!!!!! Lets not even sugar coat the truth. So the day we had to c him off it was really sad but it didnt get worse untul he was about to leave and then came back, burst out crying, like full hardcore crying and said "i dont know what im gunna do without u guys." That was when i knew that this would be harder than i thought to say goodbye. Well after we left we went on with our live but of course not without jer cause he calles every oportunity he gets .(which is every moment of his stay there cause hes switching his job and has all this time to himself....must be fuckin nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )

The shit with megan and artie will 4 ever haunt us till judgement day!!!!!!!!! this girl cant get away and this chooch wont let her go. Can anyone else see the potential for a serial killer?????? While they do the ex quarrel, megans focusing on a new dude ( Randel Martell.....hes irish and skinny like anorexicly skinny he need to step fooyt in an italian house for about 2 months and see how he turns out lol)  who i for one am excited for her cause: A- she needs someone, except theres a prob, hes got a girlfriend but that will change soon if i have anything to do with it. B- our group is so boring and we need som new blood in it. But as everyone knows that if she does gat a new boyfriend ARTHUR T CURCIONE will be there to try to ruin it but its not gunnna happen........im on watch duh!!!!

Cor Cor and jer date now and they r the new hottest thing to talk about! They r officially the hottest couple of 2005 ( well more cor than jer cause u know corrie ellen fucking o'hara is the hottest girl in nf!!!!!!!!!) Jer wanted to come home and go to school in Kentucky and i was like what did u hit ur head? U date Corrie Ellen fucking O'hara the girl every guy wants and the girl every girl wants to be!!!!! If u go to Kentucky T-UNIT will just have to deal with u!!!! I love Corrie!!!!! She cracks me up like whoa!!!! It is hilarious when we get together...hellen keller!!!!!

Megans b-day was on saturday and it was bitchin!!!!!!!! My parentals went to Syracuse to visit mt sister and the house was mine!!!! We had more fun than watching two cats fuck!!!!! We played flip cup and beer pong, watched mean girls, had food(of course), cake, and we sang happy b-day and it was hott! oh yeah and we DRANK OUR ASSES OFF!!!! Megan even drank and at that point i knew my boo was growing up. ; Well thats my update for the month ill prolly write about the dream i had later when i get home from hojos.

[	Current Mood	|	annoyed	]
[	Current Music	|	sugar cult- memory	]

The past wek has been interesting(thats the only word i can use without offending anyone i hang with). Ive spent it with none other than my friends:meg nik mat marc bry(ugly bry in corries case) and jer. Its getting a little rediculous! I mean i like going out ith them but its the same shit over and over and over! B4 we all use to go to matts hotel and chill in the "L" wing and it was fun, but now that i work there i just wanna go home after. who wants to stay at work any longer than i have yto...........................not i! I really miss H5!!!!!!!!! I cant stress that enough! We will all hang out again if i ahve to kidnap each of shove u all in my shitty buick and drive us somewhere to do our heinousness to people!

I saw s.k yesterday at tops and started to laugh so loud i almost pissed myself. She really needs new glasses because the ones she wears look like granny glasses and they're to big for her face.    Well whtever im bored as shit and ill prolly be bored tonight too with the same ppl i hang out with all the fucking time. Only megan feels my pain on this one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh and if kt reads this what the hell si up with u and manager boy??????

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[	Current Music	|	sweetness-jimmy eat world	]

Megan thought I should update my journal so here's the update: Yesterday Megan informed me that her boobs were hurting, which could mean that her period is comming. So no sex for whowever wants to "hit" that. That is the update for today.